Cross-bearing Pain
by Rev. John Ensor
Mary was only a few days pregnant when she met up with Elizabeth, who was then six months pregnant (Luke 1:39). And this baby, soon to be named John the Baptist, at six months gestation, leapt for joy in the presence of the fully God, fully human, Son of God who was at that moment only a few days old, a "zygote" in biological terms.
But not all was joy. Along with the incarnation, there was the slaughter of many innocent children. Herod "killed all the male children in Bethlehem... who were two years old or under...Then was fulfilled what was spoken by the prophet Jeremiah: "A voice was heard in Ramah, weeping and loud lamentation, Rachel weeping for her children; she refused to be comforted, because they are no more" (Mt 2:16-18). A whole village of sons slaughtered. A whole village of mothers left inconsolable in their grief.
It is important that you understand that behind our many joyful stories of babies saved and born, we are quietly, tearfully, painfully enduring losses too. Sometimes the pain is particularly brutal to bear, which is why we call this work cross-bearing for the child-bearing. Recently, a woman came in and received an ultrasound. That is not unusual anymore as we are doing about 30 a month now. What was unique about this one is that the baby was confirmed to be six months along; the same age when John the Baptist met Jesus and worshiped Him, womb to womb! Through the ultrasound we saw a little boy fully formed and clearly visible right down to his toes and eyelashes, a masterpiece of God. We smiled at him, talked to him, photographed him and pledged to help his mother.
This week we confirmed that this little boy was slaughtered, dismembered and discarded by one of our local Miami abortionists. The news struck like a punch in the stomach. The mind searches "did we do all we could? Could we have done more?" The heart cries out, "Father God, we tried! We were ready to help!" Finally, the tears push all thoughts aside and just run down in silent sadness before a Sovereign God. This is the price we pay in rescuing so many others.
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